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It had to be done. I made myself happy.

Yesterday, my head was out of commission. I couldn’t get my brain to cooperate with my mouth. Delayed speaking. Messy phrases. 
Ever had a day like that?
The worst part was, my day never had a chance. That’s just the way I woke up.
Something had to change. I didn’t like struggling to put my thoughts together. Talking, laughing, that’s what I wanted. 
At lunch, I drove home like usual. A flash of trees whizzed by me.  I thought how nice it would be to feel the sunshine on my face. Even the birds were chirping from the tree tops. I veered the car to the left, to the trees, and I pulled up to a nature center not far from my house. It was a perfect thought, feeling the need to be one with nature, so I went with it.
I stayed in my car for a minute or so, watching people power walking and running along the trails. Finally I got out of my car. I slammed the door and I started walking toward the woods. A really great tree spanned out high above my head. I stared up the trunk and a memory floated to the front of my mind. Secret Detective Erika. 8-years-old. Dressed in my dad’s best khaki sports coat and hiding from anything I could see. Neighbors. Traffic. A couple of crazy squirrels. I hid in the bushes, behind a trash can, and I rolled across the yard to climb the nearest tree.  The breeze tickled my cheeks. I forgot about everything. I reclined in that tree and I dreamed.
So that’s exactly what I did on my lunch break yesterday. Yes, I climbed a tree. I’ve got pictures! Take a look.
After a few calming minutes in that tree I realized switching my environment cured my head. I could breathe. I could think. I went back to the office skipping through the front door. People laughed at me, but oh well. Maybe my skipping shook up their day a little too.
When life feels a little heavy, remember the fun things. Open a window, let the breeze tickle your face. Light a candle and smell the delicious aroma sneaking up your nose. Music works too. Pick something fun you haven’t heard in a really long time. Sing.
These are a few of my favorite things. They work for me. What’s your favorite thing?

Monday Motivation: Staring Challenge in the Face

Wouldn’t it be awesome if you woke up and your day was absolutely flawless? You’re mood was perfect. None of the kids were crying. You didn’t have to iron that shirt. The coffee pot didn’t make a giant mess all over the counter and you got in your car, zoomed off to work and there was no bumper to bumper traffic; in fact everyone just sort of moved out of your way, or your car sprouted hovercraft wheels and you zoomed right over it(totally my dream once while I tapped my fingers on my steering wheel). Maybe when you got to work, you were in that meeting and everyone listened. Everyone agreed your solution was the best. You just became a hero on the spot.

Wow!

I’ve been known to swear at traffic before. I’ve spilled coffee all over my shirt. And ironing? It’s one of the things I don’t like doing because I’ve tended to burn a shirt or two in my past. Even my husband’s shirts and pants. EEK! Meetings? I’ve led them. And once I had a lady start crying in the middle of a meeting, right out of nowhere. She didn’t want to go to work anymore. And this morning, one of my kiddos is down for the count heavy with the flu, eyes watery and nose running, body aches, a moderate fever. Not to mention we’re working on potty training the wee one and that is a HUGE challenge all by itself.

I’m thinking about challenges today. Deadlines. Pressures. How we deal with people we’re around when we feel the heat. How I respond when my little girl, a giant handful, is screaming at the top of her lungs about how she refuses to go on the potty. We sit. We try. And she gets off and goes in her pants two seconds later. So this time, we’re using bubbles as a distraction technique. A great suggestion by a coworker by the way.

I love this Michael Jordan quote. Heck, growing up, I plain loved Michael Jordan. All he had to do was step out on the court and I’d get all giddy. I remember the excitement I felt every time I watched him dunk a ball. Maybe it was his giant smile in all the commercials and his bright eyes that smiled just as big. It could have been Bugs Bunny because I loved cartoons—who knows, but I liked him.

So when he says words like this, it really makes me think. I wonder about the reason why I didn’t succeed in the past. I wonder about the reasons in every challenge why I stopped or got frustrated and why I hate ironing so much. It’s that human thing again. We are on fire the first time. We’re a little shaky the next time. And maybe the third time we try, we end up totally pulling away because it didn’t work. Again.

Failure. Burnt clothes. Angry attitudes. And a warm bed that just might keep me there after the alarm has gone off. Ugh. But it’s all part of the process. Not everyone is going to agree with me, or get out of my way on the road, or want to change their life in order to go potty in the pot because it’s easier for me—sometimes it’s that stupid iron. Oh well. I just have to laugh. I have to shake it off. And I’ll keep trying.

Meaning Something to Someone Really Rocks

My two precious miracles

It’s amazing what a little love can do for your day!

My son is four and a half. He is a type A kiddo with a huge sense for right and wrong. Sometimes I call him my little policeman. “Momma, that’s not supposed to go up there. Momma, they’re trying to drive on the road, too. Momma, yesterday you told me not to say that. Why did you say that word?” There are so many cute things he says everyday to remind me, to do the right thing. To model the right thing.

Today I received an email from the director at his daycare. She said, Simon was really missing his mommy today. He needed a little extra snuggle time, which is one of the reasons why I picked the daycare center they go to, because they are cherished there. They feel love everyday.

The director followed up and said, he wanted to send you an email, and I would have blushed ear to ear if I didn’t have olive skin.

This is the letter my son typed for me on her computer:

“J8fi,[0i =-kvt-o9,m=v-tk,\=\,=v5,3w0=,v,==v,v0,5,mk93b0-to,me-fo,v-eo,,,,,tvrtttttttttt[rdtv-,tr-vt-est,-,tvimtsmt-rmtm5trtvv0”

Then the director asked him if he felt better. He said yes.

I quickly emailed back and told the director, I had just blown him a kiss all the way from work. I asked her to see if he’d caught it.

I can’t wait to pick him up tonight and see what he had to say. I love my babies. They make me smile. They give me a reason to smile everyday and dream. Because I know when I dream and I take steps to make them happen, they watch me.  As a proud momma, I’m hoping they dream big and chase them just as hard I do.