How many times have you really wanted something—you started off strong—kept the fire burning hot, and then a cold bucket of water poured right over the top of your head.
I have changed my mind in life so many times. Always a busy person. Always moving. Fitness was a natural thing for me. I wanted to be a dietitian, until I looked six years of school in the face and realized the expense of school didn’t match with the paycheck. I wanted to be a zoologist, but discovered I had a ferocious allergy to pet dander. A landscape architect was probably my favorite career dream of the past—until my body fizzled out leaving me with nothing but a huge fever, bed rest, and a brain ache from the sleep deprivation; the gentle persuasion from those around me to figure out something else didn’t help either.
Today is a different moment. I learned I can be many different things in life. I learned to take a hard look at the things I love and weigh them in weight. Just like the Marilyn quote, I have the one thing now that I really dream about and wish for more than anything. But I can’t give up. I have to open my mind to feedback, the growth I’ll gain from it, and always write and read every day. There’s no time for excuses; there will always be competition, but I can dream harder.
So what did I do today to get me that much closer?
I have one major revision to make in my book based on a recent writing workshop I completed with a literary agency in New York. I have to change the reaction of a character, which is sort of a domino effect for the following chapters. So I set my alarm to 5:00 a.m. I set the coffee pot to go off so the smell and the steam would draw me right from the bed. I had the computer sleeping so I could sit right down, sip my coffee and write. And I did. For one entire hour before it was time to get ready for work. And you know what? I was more organized today than I’d been in a long time.
And tomorrow? 4:30 a.m. is my goal. I’m inching my way into a 4:00 a.m. routine. I know, that’s an almost ungodly time of day. But I have to. I know I can do it. ;0)